Lyrics

VERSE 1

I was snackin’ on a bench, and I was tappin’ on a cover
Of a book that had me lost, while I was waitin’ on the summer
Cause other boys are laughin’, busy calling me herb
I’m dizzy holdin’ my glasses while I’m slingin’ ‘em words
I prefer, kick their ass into a median curve
And they prefer, beat my ass until I’m no longer nerd
Had to curb, all the anger, cause the sirens fade to lullabies
Silence was a stranger, made it hard to find a reason why
Violence was the major, and to them the peace was minor
Ain’t no angels in the streets, and you don’t wanna hear the choir
In spite of the appearances, of them maintaining innocence
There’s knuckles to my head while I’m campaignin’ for the innocent
Make fun of that swim team, I’m divin’ away from Jim Beam
Don’t need to bounce on a hoop dream to be deflated by sixteen
And that means, I will never be convinced
They weren't being monsters just because they're being kids

CHORUS 
 
You could save me from the cold, would you let me in
I'm on the outside, I been lookin' in
You never seemed to like me, always tried to spite me
Been knockin' on the door, you never invite me
Pressed against a window, and I'm lookin' through
And I can't come around to your other point of view
Been seeking shelter, got nothing from you 
I'm on the outside, and you won't let me through

VERSE 2

Condescended through the interview, hiding that I’m upset 
I felt I was being ridiculed, never wanted in tech
I suspect, they're telling me I won’t ever fit the culture 
Cause mostly what they regret is I’m not the image of coder 
Poster child for the norm that penetrated the dorms
That was adorned in a conscious that venerated the scorn
And that form of a venom is leakin’ into my cerebellum
Poisoning my ego and creepin' into the words I tell ‘em
“Not to waste your time, I had to make a hesitation
Had some reservations about your method of equation
I'm givin’ you the answers and you treat it like a rumor
If my skin becomes the cancer, then you can’t remove the tumor“
Won’t humor your ideas cause laughter covers the tears
And after it’s said and done, I will still become engineer
So though I’m soft spoken, the ambition’s never broken
My mission: enter the game as something other than a token

CHORUS x1

BRIDGE

And I been lookin’ everywhere (where is my home?)
But I can’t find it anywhere (where is a home for me?)
(Where is my home? Where is my home?)
And I been lookin’ everywhere, (where is my home?)
But I can’t find it anywhere, (where is a home for me?)
(Where is my home? Where is my home?)

VERSE 3
Cause I had to learn it an early age, (where is my home?)
You can’t always avoid the rage, (where. is. my. home?)
Cause long as my crimson courses, they’ll keep bringing all their forces
They won’t ever stop until they see my corpse as riga mortis
So of course I panic at the sound, (where is my home?)
A voice that’s yelling “On the ground!”, (where. is. my. home.?)
From a rookie huntin’ kids in hoodies, actin’ none the wiser
Even though I already lived there, he made me the outsider

CHORUS x1